tbh, nothing much has been happening since my last post though but here's whats been happening:
it was my sweet 16! didn't really do much, i had a some friends round and we lit sky lanterns and roasted marshmallows round the fire pit ^^ at first i really couldn't be bothered doing anything but in the end i though "you're only 16 once so what the heck!". in the end, I'm glad that i did something because i had a really great time! also, on my actual birthday, i went out for dinner with the fam and my cousins even came down from Inverness! we went to di maggio's and I'm not gonna lie, their mozzarella balls are to die for <3 and the week before that it was my sister's birthday so we went out for a joint birthday dinner with family friends. we went to this amazing Japanese restaurant and i finally learnt how to use chops sticks correctly!
we started back at school (well I've actually been back since august but you know..). I'm now a senior and in may I'm going to be sitting my higher exams "yikes" that i need amazing grades in to get into uni! i am honestly shitting my pants. I'd like to say that I'm aiming for 5 A's but, lets be honest hear, I'm never going to get an A in higher maths! so I'm kinda going for 3/4 A's and 1/2 B's coz that seems a lot more realistic :L and i almost forgot, i got 7 A's and 1 B in my intermediate 2 exams! i couldn't believe my eyes, i seriously thought that I'd failed chemistry, never mind get an A!!!
sooo it's nearly halloween and i need to have a costume by thursday or else my rainbows will kill. also, I'm on my school charities committee so i have to go :/ I've kind of narrowed my costume down to tinkerbell, a sailor or little red riding hood but i do not want to look like a slut.
oh yeah, and i might be going to Paris!!!!!!!!!! my school might be doing a higher french trip at the end of february/start of march but if we're going then everyone kinda needs to know. we'd only be going for 2/3 days but its better than nothing i suppose! i was hoping that my teacher would tell us today if we were definitely going or not but she didn't :(
and I'm super excited for July because I'M GOING TO SPAIN! we are staying in almeria and my 2 cousins and aunt and uncle are going too! i honestly can't for the sun, the heat, the food etc. because of the weather it feels as though we didn't even have a summer this year and i didn't even go away anywhere warm
actually, kind of alot has happened since my last post! i went to London to see lady gaga! she was amazing, and i love London even more each time i go! during the September weekend i went to this wee fishing village in fife called largo. the weather was lovely but it was still pretty cold but despite this my friend kate and i were still stupid enough to go in the sea!
costco cake is da bomb
sapporooooooo
happy birthday you guyssss <3
largo
freezin' our asses off!
the view from the hotel in london
words cannot describe how much i want to go to paris!
i dunno, I'm just really into foster the people right now..
sooooo study leave has been good, although there's been a severe lack of studying. what can I say? I have an extreme talent in the procrastinating department ;)
so here's what Ive done when i was supposed to be studying:
went out for lunch with the 'rentals
went down to the grandparents
holly and kate stayed over
did a shift at work
caught up with khloe and lamar and watched a bunch of pixar movies that were on the tv
aaaaaand yesterday, carine was a pal and came with me to my wee neighbours 6th birthday party because i promised to help out. we have both developed our skills in the hand/cheek painting department..
oh well. my next exam isn't till next week so Ive plenty of time to study but tomorrow I'm going to go into school and study in the library so I'll hopefully get some work done. or then again, i might just go and annoy my chemistry teacher :')
snapped this picture from my friends bedroom window on Saturday night. my camera's out of battery so i had to use my phone so it's not the best quality but i just had to get a picture! she lives in troon so you can see the isle of arran in the background.
I honestly think I'm becoming an insomniac. I can never get to sleep at night and always wake up early in the morning! It is almost 12.30 am so it is now Monday. In less than 7 hours I need to get up for school :( normally I hate school but I only have 2 more days of my fourth year classes and then I'll be on study leave for a month! yaaaaaaaaaay! I honestly can't wait even though l'll have to do an insane amount of studying! Oh well.. I'm away to try get to sleep, goodnight ♥
maybe i should cut my hair.. but these last few days, I've been feeling a little restless. i don't what it is but I'm just fed up with everything but then i feel like i don't see enough of other things? yeah, i am aware that I'm totally and completely contradicting myself.
I'm so glad that i start new classes after my exams because i just feel like my classes are becoming so tedious and pointless. I'm so over intermediate 2's. I'm ready to start my higher courses because they are the qualifications that i actually need to get into uni! i just feel like I'm wasting my time in school because there's so much that i want to do and i feel like I'll never get round to doing them unless i do it now. why can't i be 18 already? i want to drive; i want to travel; i want to be able to do what i want when i want to do them. i want to get out of Scotland and start living my life!
oh, the frustrations of teenage angst.
ah well, i guess on the bright side its nearly summer? at least after summer, i should get to see my best friend more? it's ironic that she is in my year, and goes to my school, and yet, i only really get to see her at the weekends because i don't really mix well with all the people that she's friends with in school... its funny how one person can make everything change. but she should be in at least one of my classes next year so that means I'll hopefully be in a minimum of 6 classes with her!
i know it's Monday but it honestly feels like it should be Friday again! i find school so draining. I'm already exhausted!
sorry for the rant, I will be happier next time :)
hahaa, sound this old post that i forgot to publish;
so I finally got the laptop fixed so i can blog agaaaaain! the only bad thing is that the entire memory got wiped so i lost all my pictures, itunes, school work etc.. not much has been happening though, just a bit stressed because i've had my final music exam, french speaking and next week i have to a spanish writing prelim and a big essay on the russian civil war for history. even though my exams are in two months my social life is starting to pick up though ^.^ i've got two birthday party's next weekend, kate is coming over tomorrow so we can pig on take-away and i am hopefully going to get to see the hunger games with Iman and Jordyn at some point! i honestly cant wait, josh hutcherson(the guy that plays Peeta) is absolutely gorgeous <3
how brilliant is this? and woah.. i haven't blogged in forever!
not even going to recount what been happening because in all honesty nothing much has happened since my last blog. Ive just been stressing about my exams that start in about two weeks!!! I'm so scared that I'll fail everything but i know that I've not been studying as much as i should. I'm glad that that's the end of fourth year now. despite all my highers next year, I'm really looking forward to it! I've picked english, maths, spanish, french and history and i love all those subjects except english! I'm also looking forward to being in a new class with new people. i guess I'm just looking for a fresh start because this year sucked! i had to deal with moving groups of friends all because of 2 girls and keeping on top of 8 subjects that i know Ive got to sit exams in.
but on the bright side I'm going to see lady gaga in september in london with caaaaaaaaaarine!!!!
I am extremely sorry for my extreme lack of blogging recently but my laptop broke and it's taking ages to get repaired, my computer is dead and i don't know how to publish posts on my phone.. But to be honest, all my life has consisted of is school, studying, and practicing my pieces for my music exam on Tuesday.
I'm sorry that I can't write more but I'm writing this on my sisters iPhone and she should be coming out of the shower at any time now ;)
im so glad that it's a long weekend. the thought of school on monday after spending a week chasing after 10 year olds does not appeal to me.
so far, it's been a good weekend! after two weekends of sitting around doing nothing, i actually got out the house!
yesterday, i went to the park with my friend carine and we took pictures and walked my dog and last night kate stayed over and holly came over for a wee while because she was too tired to stay the night. it was nice to see kate because i hadn't seen her in ages! we didnt get to sleep untill 4 in the morning and i made her watch the notebook because she'd never seen it before :O today i went into town with kate and holly. we went to wagamamas for lunch and spent ages in topshop! i also saw a really nice top in hollister, but it was a little bit out of my price range... all i bought was food and nail glitter that was £2 in urban outfitters because it was on sale! another good thing that happened today was that i got a letter in from my spanish teacher saying that i'd got 30/30 in my speaking exam which means that i've already got 30% and ive not even done the reading, writing and listening exams that i'll do in may!
this reminds me of the notebook
beautiful carine♥
creepy duck was staring at me
kate and holly♥
kate being a poser ;)
my all time favorite film EVER.
wagamama's katsu curry is amazing
painted my nails for the first time in years with the nail glitter
I love them to death, respect them, and appreciate everything they do for me but sometimes they can be so.. frustrating! over the past few days my mum has been moaning at me to start studying for my exams that are in may.. obviously i know that i need to study but I'm so stubborn and independent so when I'm going to do something I'll do it in my own time, on my own terms. i hate it when my parents constantly tell me what to do. i have friends that have lost a parent or their parents are divorced, or their parents are really strict so i know that I'm lucky to have such great parents. they're not too strict or pushy and I'm definitely not spoilt but when i ask for something for Christmas or my birthday-as long as its nothing to crazy- i normally get it. but i just cant deal with it when they get on at me about things, i need my space. when i get mad, i get really mad. i don't think me friends realize this but my parents certainly know it. i know that I'm being selfish when i yell at them and tell them that they don't care when they do. i honestly don't know what I'd do without them. my parents drive my to school, take me places, drive me to school, dancing etc, buy my things and pay for tutors. i honestly wish i wasn't so selfish but when it comes to school and studying, i wish they would just leave me be. i know that i need to get straight A's to get into the uni i want to go to and i don't need them to constantly tell me that. i love all my family but i don't think they realize how much pressure I'm under. they expect me to get straight A's, my whole family does! but i want those A's just a much as they do. i want them so badly! i just wish my parents would tell me less about how much work i need to do and more about how they just want me to do my best.
if this if how i react to intermediate 2's then i have no idea how I'm going to cope with higher..
so now I'm sitting in my room listening to Taylor swift and I've calmed down a bit. so i think I'll go apologize for yelling and then i might go do a bit of one of the physics past papers that my mum got me today. mum and dad, I'm sorry for being a brat, i love you.
i am never going to be and will never want to be a primary school teacher. ok, maybe that's a bit harsh but i was seriously bored to tears all day-it's just not for me. it might have been better if i was with the p1's but I'm with the p5/6's instead. the kids are sweet and all but i just don't have the patience for it. it's also really awkward when all the teachers ask "oh, so do you want to be a teacher then?" - LOL no. never. i only came here because i thought it would be easy and no law firms or waterstones would do work experience. i guess it was nice being back in my old primary school though :') i was surprised that all the teachers I'd had actually remembered me and some of the kids I'd prefected did too! when i got my placement there, i thought it was going to be so different and everything would have changed. I'd heard that most of the teachers I'd had had left already so i was surprised that most of them were still there.
the classroom assistant i was working with said to me today "you probably thought that just because you've changed that everything else would have too but it hasn't- you've just moved on"- that sums up everything that i thought.
it's not that i don't have any friends.. it's just that they were all busy at the same time :/ i was supposed to a see a friend today but she forgot and made other plans and all my other friends were busy too. i was going to go to the gym today but i really hate going on my own sooooo, yeah.
my social life never really recovered after my prelims
its a bank holiday next week so we're off school on friday, monday and tuesday so next weekend should be good! i'm supposed to be having my friend holly to stay on friday night and i'm going to try see my friends carine and emma. plus my aunt is coming down from inverness to stay at my gran and granpas(my gran broke her hip and her wrist) so i'll go down and see them one day :)
also, this week should be interesting because i'm doing my work experience. i'm actually going back to my old primary school so it'll be funny to see how much it's changed in the last four years and if anyone will remember me. what makes it better is that my friend sarah is going to crookfur too, so at least i won't be on my own all the time.
i'm just glad to be getting out of school for a week!
i think it's fair for me to say that I've had a hard year. I've finally seen what real stress can be( with my prelims and exams coming up and all) and i had to stop seeing one of my best friends in school because of one stupid incident. now i only see when i walk down the corridor with her and when i occasionally see her at the weekend. i see now in leaving her and that whole group of friends, it's me who's come out the better person. at the end of the day, i was fed up of being treated like shit and i knew that i deserved better.
now I'm closer than ever with her but it still makes me sad to look over at them all in school and see all the things I'm missing but I'm happier now than i ever was when i hung around with them. sometimes the best choice isn't always the easiest one, and i had to learn that the hard way.
i think i've been needing to say get that out for a while now but i never knew who to tell. i guess this blog has given me an outlet for all the things i've wanted to say but never knew how.
got woken up at half 7 for no apparent reason and now i can't get back to sleep. this is shit sucks. now i know why i never get up this early at the weekends. that whole "early bird catches the word" thing is a load of crap.
but I'm up now so whatever...
i got bored so i started looking at all the things i want but will never get:
i will never get pointe shoes because- even though I've wanted to since i was 5, i have never taken a ballet class
i won't be able to get an iphone for at least another 2 years because i just got a new phone for my birthday in October ( before you call me extremely selfish, i did want an iphone for my birthday but my parents don't trust me enough with a phone that expensive) and i cant afford one.
i have wanted to get my cartilage pierce for over a year now, but haven't because
I'm not 16 yet so I'm scared in case i get rejected
my mum would freak out
i think i have a low pain threshold
Ok so i don't really want ray bans, i just think it would be cool to say you own a pair ;)
i cant have a pinkberry because the closest one is in london :/
