cheers to the freakin' weekend

im so glad that it's a long weekend. the thought of school on monday after spending a week chasing after 10 year olds does not appeal to me.

so far, it's been a good weekend! after two weekends of sitting around doing nothing, i actually got out the house! 

yesterday, i went to the park with my friend carine and we took pictures and walked my dog and last night kate stayed over and holly came over for a wee while because she was too tired to stay the night. it was nice to see kate because i hadn't seen her in ages! we didnt get to sleep untill 4 in the morning and i made her watch the notebook because she'd never seen it before :O 
today i went into town with kate and holly. we went to wagamamas for lunch and spent ages in topshop! i also saw a really nice top in hollister, but it was a little bit out of my price range... all i bought was food and nail glitter that was £2 in urban outfitters because it was on sale! another good thing that happened today was that i got a letter in from my spanish teacher saying that i'd got 30/30 in my speaking exam which means that i've already got 30% and ive not even done the reading, writing and listening exams that i'll do in may! 

this reminds me of the notebook

beautiful carine ♥    

creepy duck was staring at me

kate and holly ♥   

kate being a poser ;)

my all time favorite film EVER.

wagamama's katsu curry is amazing

painted my nails for the first time in years with the nail glitter

 i really want this top from hollister

when love turns into hatred

Oh my god. my parents make me so mad.


I love them to death, respect them, and appreciate everything they do for me but sometimes they can be so.. frustrating! over the past few days my mum has been moaning at me to start studying for my exams that are in may.. obviously i know that i need to study but I'm so stubborn and independent so when I'm going to do something I'll do it in my own time, on my own terms. i hate it when my parents constantly tell me what to do.
i have friends that have lost a parent or their parents are divorced, or their parents are really strict so i know that I'm lucky to have such great parents. they're not too strict or pushy and I'm definitely not spoilt but when i ask for something for Christmas or my birthday-as long as its nothing to crazy- i normally get it. but i just cant deal with it when they get on at me about things, i need my space.
when i get mad, i get really mad. i don't think me friends realize this but my parents certainly know it. i know that I'm being selfish when i yell at them and tell them that they don't care when they do. i honestly don't know what I'd do without them. my parents drive my to school, take me places, drive me to school, dancing etc, buy my things and pay for tutors. i honestly wish i wasn't so selfish but when it comes to school and studying, i wish they would just leave me be. i know that i need to get straight A's to get into the uni i want to go to and i don't need them to constantly tell me that.
i love all my family but i don't think they realize how much pressure I'm under. they expect me to get straight A's, my whole family does! but i want those A's just a much as they do. i want them so badly! i just wish my parents would tell me less about how much work i need to do and more about how they just want me to do my best.


if this if how i react to intermediate 2's then i have no idea how I'm going to cope with higher..


so now I'm sitting in my room listening to Taylor swift and I've calmed down a bit. so i think I'll go apologize for yelling and then i might go do a bit of one of the physics past papers that my mum got me today.
mum and dad, I'm sorry for being a brat, i love you.

new experiences

i am never going to be and will never want to be a primary school teacher.
ok, maybe that's a bit harsh but i was seriously bored to tears all day-it's just not for me. it might have been better if i was with the p1's but I'm with the p5/6's instead. the kids are sweet and all but i just don't have the patience for it.
it's also really awkward when all the teachers ask "oh, so do you want to be a teacher then?" - LOL no. never. i only came here because i thought it would be easy and no law firms or waterstones would do work experience.
i guess it was nice being back in my old primary school though :') i was surprised that all the teachers I'd had actually remembered me and some of the kids I'd prefected did too! 
when i got my placement there, i thought it was going to be so different and everything would have changed. I'd heard that most of the teachers I'd had had left already so i was surprised that most of them were still there.


the classroom assistant i was working with said to me today "you probably thought that just because you've changed that everything else would have too but it hasn't- you've just moved on"- that sums up everything that i thought.

i need a social life

this weekend i have:

• slept
• ate shit
• done nothing

i know, that's really bad.

it's not that i don't have any friends.. it's just that they were all busy at the same time :/ i was supposed to a see a friend today but she forgot and made other plans and all my other friends were busy too. i was going to go to the gym today but i really hate going on my own sooooo, yeah.

my social life never really recovered after my prelims

its a bank holiday next week so we're off school on friday, monday and tuesday so next weekend should be good! i'm supposed to be having my friend holly to stay on friday night and i'm going to try see my friends carine and emma. plus my aunt is coming down from inverness to stay at my gran and granpas(my gran broke her hip and her wrist) so i'll go down and see them one day :) 

also, this week should be interesting because i'm doing my work experience. i'm actually going back to my old primary school so it'll be funny to see how much it's changed in the last four years and if anyone will remember me. what makes it better is that my friend sarah is going to crookfur too, so at least i won't be on my own all the time.

i'm just glad to be getting out of school for a week!

excited.

i think that march 23rd should come sooner

talking point.

harry potter is and always will be better than twilight.
just thought i'd clarify things

what doesn't kill you make you stronger

i think it's fair for me to say that I've had a hard year. I've finally seen what real stress can be( with my prelims and exams coming up and all) and i had to stop seeing one of my best friends in school because of one stupid incident. now i only see when i walk down the corridor with her and when i occasionally see her at the weekend. i see now in leaving her and that whole group of friends, it's me who's come out the better person. at the end of the day, i was fed up of being treated like shit and i knew that i deserved better.


now I'm closer than ever with her but it still makes me sad to look over at them all in school and see all the things I'm missing but I'm happier now than i ever was when i hung around with them. sometimes the best choice isn't always the easiest one, and i had to learn that the hard way.


i think i've been needing to say get that out for a while now but i never knew who to tell. i guess this blog has given me an outlet for all the things i've wanted to say but never knew how.

10 things

10 things about myself is trending on twitter, so i thought "why not" :)

1. i live in glasgow
2. i love to read
3. my favourite book (at the moment) is the hunger games
4. i'm craving a nutella crepe right now
5. i have a great family
6. i have four best friends 
7. i tan burn easily
8. i just picked the subjects that are going to determine whether or not i go to uni or not
9. i have planned my entire life out in my head
10. i am always tired!

mmmmmmm, nutella crepes ♥

moody

got woken up at half 7 for no apparent reason and now i can't get back to sleep. this is shit sucks. now i know why i never get up this early at the weekends. that whole "early bird catches the word" thing is a load of crap.

but I'm up now so whatever...

i got bored so i started looking at all the things i want but will never get:

i will never get pointe shoes because- even though I've wanted to since i was 5, i have never taken a ballet class

 i won't be able to get an iphone for at least another 2 years because i just got a new phone for my birthday in October ( before you call me extremely selfish, i did want an iphone for my birthday but my parents don't trust me enough with a phone that expensive) and i cant afford one.

i have wanted to get my cartilage pierce for over a year now, but haven't because

• I'm not 16 yet so I'm scared in case i get rejected 
• my mum would freak out
• i think i have a low pain threshold 

Ok so i don't really want ray bans, i just think it would be cool to say you own a pair ;)

i cant have a pinkberry because the closest one is in london :/

happy pill.

i can't not smile whenever i see this. my friend showed me it the other day and it's just the cutest thing 

ever!

i'd go wherever you would go...

...if only you knew i existed

new girl.

here goes nothing.

 i'm nervous, excited, and just just looking for something to do with my time

i've been wanting to start a blog for a while now, i just never got round to doing it. just like how

i've still never got my ears pierced again, how i say i'll study and then never do, how i've meaning

to get new head phones for about two months now..

i'm lazy and i know it but i'm going to change that. starting with this blog ^.^